Thursday, September 30, 2010


I Strive to be the Man My Dog Thinks I Am..........Hmmmmmmmm.  I catch myself thinking, I Strive to be the Man My Friends And Family Think I Am.

Some people see this world through Rose Colored Glasses.  I guess I've been looking at it lately through Shaded Glasses.  When I look at myself I usually see the Bad before I see the Good.  I expect more from me and it seems that people see more than I expect.

I suppose we all are harder on ourselves at times.  We know who we are......Really Who We Are.....both the Good and the Bad.  I do forget at times that I AM HUMAN.....and with that comes a multitude of characteristics, some of them definitely Flawed...but that's why they call it HUMAN.  As I strive to be the man I think everyone wants me to be I have to be reminded that I don't have a Giant S on my chest.  I'm not Superman (Thanks Lin for Reminding Me and Being That Friend).  The only one I am really accountable to is GOD and ME.  I don't have to live up to other's expectations, I only have to be the Best That I Can Be and as long as God and I are in a good place then I know I'm on the right track.

It seems like I'm using the ME word a lot and for Me.....that's uncomfortable.  So many times I've been put in the Caretaker roll and have not had much time to worry about ME.  It feels awkward instead of natural and that's not a good thing.

Soooooo....Maybe....I'll learn to quit being so hard on myself.  Maybe....I'll learn to relax and enjoy life more. Maybe....I'll realize I'm not a bad guy after all.  Maybe....Just Maybe....I'll realize I'M HUMAN.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The Journey Begins

We didn't sign up for this life....but you know what....We're here.  We have to learn to roll with the punches or be swept out to sea.  If we think back to the age of 7 or 8, we would have never dreamed we would be where we are now.  Life is a Journey with all its ups and down, twist and turns, struggles and adventures, however we look at it.  Some of what life gives us is purely circumstances, I guess you could call it Providence.  Some of our Journey is based on the decisions we make, whether good or bad, their consequences have a way of catching up with us one way or the other.

My Life......Hmmmmmmm.  I can see so many decisions that have complicated my life so much and yet so much of my life has been dictated by Circumstances or Providence.  Life has shown me my Strengths and Weaknesses. It has shown me how to Hate Life and Love it at the same time.  It has shown me how to be a Professional Survivor and maybe too many times a Complainer as well.  But My Life is My Life.

We all are responsible for how we roll with the punches, how we react to our circumstances, whether we fall down and lay there or get up and fight back.  So this is my journey, my moment to lift up....or complain, to ask questions or wish things were better.  I've always said, Life Is A Journey And The Friends We Make Along The Way Are Its Treasures.  So I invite you along on this Journey and hopefully it will be a time of growth and learning for all of us........