When Will I Rest

I lay here tossing and turning, tossing and turning, wide a wake, tossing and turning. I close my eyes only to have my mind opened up with all the sadness, all the frustration, all the anger, all of the events of the day rushing through my head. When will it stop, when will I find rest, when will I find peace.........

When Will I Rest.

So many times I've had to shut off my mind, shut off my emotions, shut off my life to be the comforter, to be the peacemaker, to be the one in charge. The day has lingered and my body, my mind and yes my spirit are worn out..........

When Will I Rest.

I've dealt too long with the insanity of others, the anger of others, the sadness of others and yes, the selfishness of others. The walls that I have tried so hard to tear down around my heart, the cold hard bricks that shut out the world and shut me in seems to have been in vein. The more I try to tear down, the more others come to replace them...........

When Will I Rest.

They need me now, they need me to help them through their sadness, their insanity, their pain, their anger, their Journey. They need so much, they need so much. Their need will stop one day, a sad day, a mournful day. They will rest, they will find peace, they will start a new Journey.........

When Will I Rest.

Others seem to rise up to take their place, to need, to find comfort, to find peace and fight me all the way on their journey because of their anger, their insanity, their frustration. They struggle, they cry for help, they look for answers, they look for peace, they look for rest..........

When Will I Rest.

I should lay back down, close my eyes and see if the peace comes, the rest comes, the sleep comes. I should let go of this day of anger, of pain, of insanity and sadness. I should try to let go, to rest, to sleep for tomorrow the Journey continues.

When Will I Rest.

When Will I Rest...................